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J-Craze

2012-01-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

After months of preparation, sourcing, wandering in unknown territorials, J-Craze is finally launched. Starting from afresh was never easy and so is success. I never thought of how far I would go in this business but certainly hope I would make best of everything now. This is a milestone in my life, a new experience and a total change of path.

What makes me proud is every part of J-Craze was made by me from scratch. It definitely represents me. From the design of website to every product, I had every hand in it. There are hiccups and delays along the way but I'm glad it turn out the way I want it.

I thank everyone who has been patient and concern about me, even those who belittle me. Criticism won't bring me down, it only makes me work even harder.

2011-12-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

As 2011 coming to an end, I ponder upon the past year events.
2012 is going to be different, that is for sure.
I just hope things could go a bit smoother.
Life as it is, never go smoothly according to plans.
But I will get there, some way or another.

Life is about doing what you love and enjoying every part of it.
Making it happen takes time and effort but it's going to be all worth it.
Merry Christmas everybody..

2011-12-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

This could be the umpteen times I had probably said but time really flies.
It has been 3 months since I last wrote.
Besides being jobless for the first time in 7 years, I also suffered my worst injury of my life.
The road to recovery was long so is the road of starting afresh.
There are many things in life which you would never foresee no matter how much you have planned.
This could be the hardest time of my life but I believe, in difficulties makes miracles.
When the clouds are gone, the sun will shine again.
Can't wait for things to move on and my life to get started again.

I appreciate those who are concerned about me even though they did not ask.
For those who are following me on this blog, thank you for being a silent listening ear.
Although I had no idea who you people are, but I'm sure you are the ones that care about me most.

Believe..
That's why life is worth living for.

2011-09-10T16:36:00.002+08:00

今天讀完了我人生的第一本華文小說。
只能說電影的魔力非同小可。
九把刀是個很會講故事的人。
每一筆幾乎都寫進人的心裡。

我一直都覺得人生不該有任何遺憾。
想做什麼就去做。
人生不就是這樣嗎？
故事精彩不在於結局，而是過程。
這彷拂寫照了我們一生。
盡管我現在站在人生的十字路口，卻不感到畏懼。
我也不曉得未來會怎樣，但我知道這是我想要的生活。
毫無遺憾的向前努力。

2011-08-22T00:55:00.002+08:00

時光飛逝，多兩個禮拜我就正式離開國防部。
這一個月的假期很快過去了。
兩個禮拜的台灣遊，加上這週末的kukup，無煩惱的玩樂告一個段落。
人生即將從新出發。
這段旅程的結果還是個未知數。
但至少我能過我想要的生活。
即使不完美，即使辛苦也是值得的。

我不知道有多少人關注這個部落格，
但我想謝謝你們無形的關心。
天無絕人之路，我不會有事的。

2011-06-23T20:09:00.002+08:00

Long time since I last wrote.
It has been an agonizing last month.
I can't seem to understand the rationale behind the decisions made by the higher management these days.
I would have been taken in a year ago but not now.
No way I am going to boast your statistics because of your ridiculous reason.
This is the time when you see the true colours of an organisation and your worth.
It is disheartening to leave in such a manner.
Somehow, these events made me more determined to leave and succeed.
I had never bear thoughts of hatred towards the hand that feed me.
However, these 2 weeks have seen this hand started to slap me for their self-centered targets.
All they ever care was their numbers and goals. Where is the humanity?
Pardon me, if this is the extent you are going to push me, then this will be the extent I am going for.
Do not push a dog to the wall, because it will turn around and bite you.

Taking a big step

2011-05-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

As time march towards the end of May, the date gets closer.
I'm getting plenty of mixed feelings.
These 7 years were great experience to me.
I met many people, know most of them and hate some of them.
So, I asked myself, what have I learn during my time in service?
I learn that striving hard and sticking to your principles get you nowhere.
In the end, we are just merely taking instructions from a higher order.
Why succumb to the hands of hierarchy when you have a choice in life?

For the past 1 year, I opened my eyes.
I start to realize that many of my beliefs are drifting away.
In this reality, climbing up the ladder requires more than just strength.
There were times when I thought I could persevere to the end, but it seems that the time has passed.
No longer do I harbor any thoughts of staying.
I could never understand in a non-profitable organization, there are so much struggle for power.
Sad to say, it was not my cup of tea.
My choice to leave at this point of time is not to escape but to forsake the belief I held so strongly.

2011-04-22T20:45:00.002+08:00

加入國軍從來不是我志願，更不是我的理想。
但卻是我那時唯一能找到安定的地方。
我沒後悔加入因為這讓我理解，讓我看清了很多事物。
在國軍的這7年，我深深地了解穿著軍服的公務員的意思。
有多少人是為了保家衛國，為了培養出優秀的軍人而加入的。
你能相信服了2年的兵議還無法通過體能測驗的道理嗎？

我確實看透了許多事物。
了解到一個人的力量是無法改變所有人的想法。
即使知道軍中有這麼多散慢，懶惰的人又如何。
軍人的素質怎麼可能會提高。

我更發現了表現和熱血在軍中是不夠的。
少不了拍拍馬屁，讓長官知道你的存在。
雖然說這在很多大公司也會發生，但我始終無發接受這種作法。
我希望能憑實力而不是靠著拍馬屁升職。
現實卻不是如此。

7年也夠了。
尤其近兩年，讓我更清楚看到人生的方向。

2011-04-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

4 more months and i'm done.
It's time to move on when there are no more passion left.
I used to be proud of uniform I don. I still do but it no longer feels the same as before.
You realised that the ideals and goals are no longer worth going after.
Afterall, one person's strength will not be enough to change the whole system.
Ability and performance are no longer the only elements to move forward.
Or shall I say, it has never been that way.
Bosses are important. They decide your career pathway.
But how many cherish the talents they have and nurture them.
Most care only about their positions, who do truly cares for those under them?
An inspiring commander inspires people, a commander who treats his men with his heart wins respect.

2011-03-13T13:15:00.002+08:00

More often than not, we found ourselves lost in the transition of time.
Before we realize it, 28 year have gone by.
It seems that looking for that modus operandi in life was never that simple.
Changes has always been inevitable, whether for good or bad.
But life reaches a certain period when enough is enough.
No matter how much passion you have, there are just no more reasons to stay on.
5 more months and somehow it seems forever.
You have been kind to me but seriously no way I can work for you.
Nevertheless, I thanked you for pushing me out so I could finally think for myself.
Thank you for showing me your shrewd, hypocrite side.
Life was never going to be easy, and you made it harder with your unreasonable.
Hopefully, one day, I would walk up to you, shake your hand and thank you from the bottom of my heart.

三月

2011-03-07T22:43:00.004+08:00

三月了。。
時間仿拂過得好快，但又感覺過得很慢。
快得有點讓人擔心。
擔心自己心裡還沒準備好，擔心未來的去向。
有好多想法卻不知從哪開始，從何著手。
說不怕是騙人的，說計畫好了也是騙人的。
時間一步一步的逼近，感覺離夢想好像越來越近。
事實上還有一段距離。
我真的準備好了嗎？
欲速則不達，我不渴望第一次就能成功。
所以說，以平常心來規畫這一切。
我一直認為機會是給有準備的人。
細心，周祥的計畫加上時機，我相信我做得到。

2011-03-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

有時覺得我太為人著想，老是被利用。
真想果斷地拒絕每個要求。
真得很不明白，排好的行程總是會被搞砸。
好悶啊～
作好人是沒用的，有多少會記得。
算了。。不答應也答應了。
下次一定要想清楚先！！

2011-02-24T18:05:00.002+08:00

How fast things took a turn in a year.
A change in career path, a change in lifestyle, a total life makeover.
It could have been a spur of moment but I am glad I made the move.
I just don't see myself working for this kind of management.
Hypocritical and manipulative contributes to the worst breed of boss you would ever had.
Sometimes you wonder how people like him survive.
At this level of management, what is exactly in his mind?
Does he really think the world is at his feet?
One day you will wake up and realise that everyone had left.
Maybe then, that will make you to self-reflect.
Only treating people with respect and sincerity will win you their hearts.

ORD time

2011-01-09T12:25:00.002+08:00

The day when you have doubts in the capabilities and the decisions of the management becomes the trigger and the motivation to leave the organisation.
It seems to be a sign, pointing towards the 'exit' door.
However, I'm thankful as it helps me to look back in my life and ponder what exactly do i want my life to be and how i should live it.
Enough of those fake and seemingly encouraging words. Those are nothing from your heart.
I do understand the plans of nurturing me to become one of your recallable slaves.
Just too bad that I am not your 'Yes Sir' type.
Get ready for this bomb shell, you never see it coming from me.

Finally here

2011-01-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

It's official 2011!!
The year began with a long weekend and 3 consecutive days of raining.
If that were to meant anything at all.
Despite the downpours, 2011 is a year to look forward to.
A year with big changes and great dreams, at least for me.
I guess I am going to start the year with a bang by saying goodbye to the green.
It was a good 7 years but no qualms about leaving. Just a matter of July or August.
Coming next will be of course, the franchise exhibition in Taiwan.
Simply cannot contain the sense of excitement in me.
I never expect to hit it off on the start but I want to give it a try.
Doing something I always wanted and working for myself.
This is a big step in life and I'm glad I'm going to do it.
It's a risk worth taking, especially in my current situation or no burdens.
I hope for the best and plan for the worse.
There is no turning back now.
My only wish, time could just move a little faster...

Welcoming year 2011?

2010-12-14T22:07:00.003+08:00

Year 2010 is coming to an end.
Alarming to realise how fast time flies past.
The day of reckoning approached.
Will year 2011 be any different?
I set my sight on leaving but i want to leave with my head held high.
Being in green for the next 20,30 years is just unthinkable.
Life is short and I ain't gonna waste my life in there, working my ass out yet nobody care.
What can they give in return?
Or do they actually appreciate what you have done for the organisation?
This will be a undeniable fact, no one is indispensible.
The only comfort you get is the green you receive every month.
How to work under such leadership?
It may be a moment of rashness.
However, thanks to this rashness, it made me found what i want in my life.
Not a mediocre soldier, nor a punching bag.

The time is near and I can't wait for it...

Looking ahead

2010-11-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

As year 2010 comes to the end, a new beginning seems to be beckoning.
I'm both excited and worried about what 2011 will bring.
Although the decision has been made, but no real actions had been done.
No doubt there are many plans in mind, choosing one is not easy.
A noob in business does not help much.
There are so much things to find out, to be planned.
Starting a business is seriously no easy feat, especially when you are alone.
However, that will not stop me.
Building my own empire has always been my dream and it is unbelievable that i am coming so close to realising.
For once, i hope time could move slightly faster.
I like what i am doing now and i felt a great job satisfaction when completing a case.
But this won't take me far, not with this management.
Even if it does, i simply don't see myself in uniform for the rest of my life.

Everything in my life seems to start out slow.
Whether my life, career, anything under the sun. I am a slow starter.
But i always believe in one thing, it does not matter when you start but how you end.
Regardless of what happens in the future, i will not regret for the decision i make.
Frankly speaking, i am looking forward to that day when i leave the SAF head held high.
I may feel reluctant to leave my current team as we had build such a bond despite my short time there.
I had learn a lot, be it in work or life. The only way to bring everybody together is to be transparent to each other. I hope one day, the management could understand.

Decision

2010-10-22T23:45:00.003+08:00

It seems that i had made a decision.
Am i so confident to leave to seek for a different life?
How much can i afford to lose?
What are you going to do?

So many people had asked me when they learnt about my decision.
But yet, i could not answer any of them confidently.
Yes, i want to leave.
But what are i going to do?
Striking out on my own had been my goal for the past 2 years.
Now is the time, i suppose.
2 more years and i am going to turn 30.
Of course 30 for a man is still young.
However, if i can start out early, why not.
I seriously had enough of civil service and it's management.
Does anyone ever recognize you for what you work or how much you work?
So what if you are recognized? You don't promote faster and you won't get a pay raise.
That is the reality of government servvice.
Only the best bootlickers survive in.

As much as i understand how much the organization dotes on us, one significant thing does not change - the management.
Unfortunately to say, there is a limit on how far you can go.
Partly the reason is also that i want to experience more of life and not closing the doors to the outside world.
As long you don't step out of the door, you will not know how the world looks like.
It is time for me to take that big leap.
I would take that chance, whether fail or success.
At least i tried and have no regrets..that is the most important in life.

Is there a future?

2010-08-31T00:36:00.002+08:00

What would you do if you can see the future?
Do you embrace it or would you attempt to change?
If you know you are going to die tomorrow, what would you have done?

Probably knowing the future may not be a good thing afterall.
Looking around, i know for sure, this is not the life i wanted.
Not that i do not have the quality to stay but the management is the main reason i will not.
It was never difficult to survive in this field.
I just do not understand how some could not.
Perhaps, this is the catalyst for me to leave.
At least i am thinking for myself now. Thinking about what i want in life.

All these events, be it concidence or accidental, has made me a stronger person and a private person whom i had always been.
I would be kidding myself for saying i do not feel lonely.
Loneliness has become part of me.
The blessing in disguise is that i have no burdens of any sort.
I am envious of the people around me.
No doubt about it, i feel alone in this world despite with so many friends who showed their care for me.
For sure, they will not be here forever, they have their lives to live.
I am not being sceptical. Who knows, i would have been dead without anyone knowing.
That is how i perceive the insignificance of myself.
Should i still condone myself in the well or it is time to move out of my comfort zone and embrace life?

Forward is the only way out.
There is no turning back.
Maybe i would one day read this and glad that i had made the move.

Regret

2010-08-30T00:12:00.004+08:00

What is life worth living for?
Working for most of your life just to succumb to illness in the end?
Only then most of us will realise that there are so many unfinished business.
So many things that we have missed and we have not done.
We had been victims of life's unpredictabilities and uncertainties, but is there any way of halting any onslaught?
The answer is obvious.
In the eyes of fate, we are merely audience.
There is nothing we can do to change the outcome of the events.
But there are things that we can do.
That is, to make our lives worthwhile.
Frankly speaking, not everybody can live with this ideology.
Or rather, it is of different perceptive for everyone.

Some people are content with their lives as it is.
Having a family and living within means.
Yes, i am not content with what i have now.
Anyone would have been.
Owning a house, have a stable job and would probably own a car if i had wanted to.
Somehow, i felt incomplete.
Perhaps i wanted to do more, to see more, to experience more.
Life is short and I want to make the best out of it.
I cannot imagine having another regret.

I had never forgotten about it.
It still lingers in me and realise it still affect me greatly.
Especially when similar events happening around me.
Flashes of memories became a reminder.
I could have done so much more, say so much more.
She could hardly breathe, let alone see me.
But she still call out to me, for the last time.
It was the last goodbye...

A good 9 years has gone by.
Yet i had not accomplish anything significant.
Time was spent wilfully when it could have been used wisely.
Quarter of century had passed but still figuring out what i want in life.
I felt so lost in life now, emotionally and mentally.

I am not enjoying any bit of it now...

truth or lie?

2010-08-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

We are living in a world of lies, no doubt about it.
I assume everyone knows and nobody does not lie.
But why do some of us get affected by such lies so much?
When has lies become so powerful that it not merely affects our state of mind but our lives as well?
When did telling lies become so logical and natural?

Truth is not merely a word now.
Telling the truth seems to be so perplexing.
Some of us just hope for the truth to be spoken even if it hurts.
For what you know, finding out the truth yourself hurts even more.

There is a boundary to that as far as i am concerned.
That one should never lie about feelings or relationship.
If you have no feelings or you already have a relationship, I see no rationale in hiding it.
Be forthcoming and be fair to everybody.
Mending a broken heart is never a walk in the park.
I sincerely still believe that there is a convincing reason.
My ears are wide open for you to feed me the truth.

A bow-out or acceptance?

2010-08-13T18:24:00.002+08:00

For the past few days, i experienced an outrageous swing of emotions.
That was probably the justification of my unusual frequent rattlings here.

Detecting deception has become my bread and butter.
To the extent that this ability integrates with my personal life.
Trust has been hard to sought after.
Perhaps being over-protective has made it even onerous.

Like a maze, i am trying to figure the way out.
What lies ahead is an enigma.
I hope to find that key to my lock but how do i be assured.
Does this spell a real relationship or a dream in disguise?

You gave me hope yet disappointment never fails to haunt me.
I am willing to devote but are you ready to embrace?

Souless

2010-08-12T18:30:00.002+08:00

This looks harder than i thought.
Perhaps i really wanted a happy ending.

I know i will get over it, just a matter of time.
It's gonna be hard but i will persevere.
Blinded yet again only to put myself in a turmoil.
Do i yearn so much of a companionship? Maybe I do.
Or maybe i just wanted to fill the emptiness inside me.
Unbearable hurt, deep in the bottom. I could feel it right there.
Never should i put my expectations so high. Now that i had fall so hard.
Karma perhaps.

I've lost faith..
Nothing could be worse off.
I need time alone, away....

Shattered hearts

2010-08-11T17:23:00.003+08:00

I thought it would not hurt so much anymore.
Seems like i was wrong afterall.

No matter what, it has been a great 2 months.
Though short but definitely memories to keep.
This is not the time and probably i am not the one as well.
Thanks anyway for everything.
Maybe tonight is the last time i get to see you.
I had never lied to you. This is the first and last time i made you upset.
It will not happen again as probably i would not get to see you again.
We are worlds apart and that is a fact. How long would it even last.
I never regret knowing you and would never. You made my heart burn again.
Thank you for helping me to find that lost feeling.
You may not get to see this but these are from the bottom of my heart.
And they will be buried there.

Good luck and goodbye..i will remember that smile of yours as it melt my heart
ever since.

I do love you,
and i will still miss you..

Do not forget

2010-08-08T12:26:00.002+08:00

I don't want to one day look back in my life, and regret what i have not done.
The situation may be complicated but the feelings are true.
Somehow, it doesnt't matter what the end brings anymore.
Cherish the present and enjoy every moment of it.
Even if it is going to be an end, it is going to be a happy ending. At least that is what i hope for.
I am going to remember every moment and cherish these memories.
As long as she is happy, doesn't matter if she ends up with me or anyone else.

It's been a long time since i had this feeling.
Something i was searching for during my past failed 2 relationship.
Although this probably not going to end up well, at least it made me realise.
Realise what i really want, what was the lacking ingredient.
Whatever happens, she shall be someone i will not forget...

2010-07-26T18:05:00.003+08:00

It has been a tiring past week.
Glad that i had a good rest physically and mentally during the weekends.
Somehow or rather, i can't help but thoughts just seem to flood in.

It does not feel good when things don't go your way.
Is it so hard to be truthful to each other?
Is it so hard to believe others?
I find it so hard...so hard for me

The only way out is make yourself believe.
Believe that miracles do happen.
Even if it doesn't, at least i tried..again..

I always had this belief.
Out of difficulties, makes miracles..

Heart rattlings

2010-07-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

Life is a vicious cycle, isn't it?
What goes around comes around.

I feel myself entangled in a world of deceits, lies and pretence.
Sincerity and truthfulness doesn't meant anything anymore.
They are just tools used for deceiving and pretending.
I used to take these for granted yet now i have fallen victim of my own misdeeds.
Payback has come so fast.

Sometimes i wondered why was i bothered about all these crap.
I thought i could be non-chalant about everything.
But seems that it still matters a lot.
What you matter most tends to always hurt you the most as well.

I could hardly think logically, if there is any logic to it at all.
The worst feeling for me is i don't know what i'm feeling right now.
Or rather how should i feel.

I need a getaway.
Away from everything and by myself.
Probably this way would knock the sense out of me.

chase your dream

2010-06-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

I seem to found my directions,
but who will be there to guide me, if there is any.
Am i fated to do everything alone?
i'm waiting for a sign..
a sign for me to go.
to go chase my dream.....

2010-05-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

好久沒寫了.
工作的忙碌讓生活起了變化.
時間突然過得好快, 不知不覺又過了一天.
不僅僅時間少, 精力也變少.
雖這麼說, 我還是盡量得去珍惜每一刻.

最近好多思緒在我腦海中.
讓我覺得很矛盾, 不知所措.

正常生活裡的我顯得很隨和,
感情裡的我卻很難搞.
無法否認, 無庸置疑的.
慢慢的發現愛一個人真得好難.
對我而言, 似乎失去愛一個人的信心.
傷害最深卻也是愛我最深的人.
我的心像是被封閉著, 怎樣也打不開.
不喜歡痛苦的感覺,
更不喜歡看到因我而痛苦的人.

距離是個殘酷的問題.
我不想去面對, 卻不能不去面對.
不想不代表它不存在.
想了卻不知怎麼解決.

現實就是這麼得殘酷.
很多人都選擇了逃避.
好不喜歡走一步算一步的感覺.
總覺得人生應該有規畫.
有規畫才會有未來.
我希望能把握現在,
更希望能有未來.

Starting all over again

2010-04-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

Time really flies.
The date on my last post reflects the reality of this saying.
It has been almost 2 months. Life certainly has changed.
Better. Or rather more satisfactory.
Definitely the place i want to be in. Finally putting into what i learn into my line of duty.
Stress are inevitable. It justs depends on how you would handle.
Thinking process becomes an everyday work. Gone are the days of spoon-feedings.
You are required to take more initiative and make difficult decisions.
I may not wish to stay in the organisation for long but i believe this is the place where i would be able to take something with me when i leave.

For once in 6 years of my life in this organisation, I can finally say I am enjoying what I am doing now.
=========

Out of MINDEF

2010-03-08T00:37:00.002+08:00

5th March 2010 marks the end of my MINDEF tour.
It has been a long 5 years serving the Ministry.
Finally, i get to do what i wanted most when i put my name on that dotted line.
I'm giving a comfortable life for a stressed and challenging job.
But i guess the latter is much more fufilling.
I don't know how long i would stay in this line, perhaps just buying time.
At least before i leave, i get to learn something different.

What the future holds depends on us.
You don't plan for your future, there will be none.

你快樂嗎

2010-02-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

兩人在一起的世界
有時連自己都不了解.
分隔兩地,
需要的是那麼多的信任跟體諒.

在一起的時刻總是那麼短暫卻又這麼可貴.
為什麼每次都得鬧僵.
說好的珍惜呢?
是你的錯? 還是我的錯?
時不時都環繞這問題.
難道我們之間只能以這種方式溝通嗎.

有時真的覺得好累.
看到這樣的你也很心疼.
讓我也開始懷疑了自己.
你真的覺得快樂嗎?

我了解自己嗎

2010-01-21T13:56:00.003+08:00

昨天去批了名.
我知道很多人一定很驚訝為什麼我會去.
認識我的人都知道我不信什麼算命師這類的.
或許我覺得有點徬徨吧.
對人生, 對自己.
感覺開始不了解自己, 到底要的是什麼.
可能我需要的是一點肯定, 一點鼓勵.
我真的不想就這樣過完我一生.
內心深處真的覺得有點無助.
我好想為自己做點事卻又不知從何做起.

說到這批名師,
真的是句句刺中我心.
沒想到從名字能看得出一個人的格性.
說到我固執啦, 很直接的一個人.
喜歡或不喜歡都很直接得表現出來.
雖說他不是算命師, 但優缺點都被他一一點中.
想到都覺得有點不可思議.
我的人生真的是過得比人慢.
要過30才會比較好.
也不知道是好事還是壞事.
反正都快30了也沒差那兩年.

可能現在我已更了解自己要的是什麼吧.
心中的徬徨也少了點.
只能希望我想的都能做到.

人只能活一次
想做就去做

從新出發?

2010-01-10T16:10:00.002+08:00

新的一年的開始.
感覺上自己又老了一歲, 卻好像一點成就也沒有.
有點可悲~

回顧去年的點點滴滴, 似乎發生了不少事.
生活起了小變化, 也嚐試了不少沒做過的事.
這些小變化讓我覺得挺開心, 雖然有點辛苦.
但是, 生活上總是覺得空虛.
或許我並不喜歡現狀吧.
總覺得在浪費人生.
人生不過如此, 短短幾十年.
也許是時候踏出那一步, 去感受人生.

我不在的這幾天好像發生了很多事.
而這些事讓我質問自己, 到底為了什麼而活?
為了錢?
為了理想?
為了愛?
為了生活?
不知為了什麼而活, 人生就變得沒意義.

我還沒失去人生的意義, 但已沒了工作的源動力.
慢慢的發現這不是我想要的工作,
這不是我想要的生活.

新的一年,
盼望著新的開始,
盼望著新的動力,
更盼望著新的生活.

Art of running

2009-12-17T18:02:00.002+08:00

Never thought that there are so much knowledge into running.
Most of us probably will just run for the sake of fitness, or part of physical training.
I came to realise that there are more to it.
Recently bought a book about running techniques - Master the Art of Running.
Halfway through the book, i had already found myself running the wrong way.
Now, you are probably wondering is that a wrong way of running.
Well, the answer is yes and many of us are doing it.

I have been running for the past 1 year, never did i think about the way i run
or the way i breathe, the way i land my foot.
Although my timing had improved through the year, i find myself stuck at a
point where i could not exceed myself.
No doubt i have been running very regularly but running the wrong way as well.
Even though many regards me a good runner now, i do not see myself as good
or near the best. Instead, i'm still far away as good.

There seem to be a new leash of life in running now.
There are so much to learn about this simple sport.
From posture to breathing to technique, i seem to be starting all over again.
But i am glad i learning the right way now.
I got the foundation. I just need to correct and get used to the corrrect way of running.
It is going to be difficult but definitely beneficial.

Learn the art of running and enjoy it.
Then results will come...

折磨人的愛情

2009-12-15T11:34:00.006+08:00

究竟兩個人在一起是為了什麼?
在一起是為了分手嗎?
當下的人是否認真想過.
曾經許下的承諾,
如今又剩下什麼.
可憐了那些為愛痴狂的人.
可憐了那些為愛傷害的人.
我只想保護和珍惜愛我的人.
愛情不就莫過於此嗎..

End of 2009 races

2009-12-07T15:53:00.009+08:00

It has been a year of milestones for me.

I challenged my limits and what a way to end 2009.

It started off in April when i set myself a target to acieve IPPT gold.

I got it from my second try.

After which i decided to run more and longer distances.

Army half marathon was the first.

I averaged from 30-50km every week,running day in day out.

It paid off as i begin running more comfortably and faster.

Running the full marathon was not on my agenda initially.

But with more than 6mths to train, i thought i'll give it a try.

The training was never easy.

Clocking distances i had never ran before.

It just gets further and further each week.

The completion of the race without stopping was satisfying.

A realistic target was set and i ran well below it.

Well, with my first marathon done, more were to come.

Resolutions for next year is simple, run more and faster.

when the going gets tough, it's just mind over body....

午餐

2009-11-30T15:36:00.002+08:00

簡單的午餐.

甜辣雞

不錯吃哦

這麼久沒煮, 水準依然在.

2009-11-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

本以為能找到安慰,
或許心情會好些.
在好轉的時候,
卻被你那無情的眼淚弄糟.
什麼也不說了.
什麼也不想說了.

這時要的不是的眼淚,
而是那能讓人開心的笑容.

好累

2009-11-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

不知怎麼, 這兩天都感覺好累.
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...

To stay or to leave?

2009-11-07T11:39:00.005+08:00

So much has been said about changing of a work environment, what is holding me back?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?

Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?

2009-10-26T17:19:00.002+08:00

到底為了什麼?
做的一切為了誰?
始終沒人了解.
做了再多還不如一句,"我愛你".

我不需問自己要付出多少,
因為我已給了你全部.
有用嗎?
感受的到嗎?
感受的到就不會說那番話了.

不知道該說什麼,
也不知道該做什麼.
說了沒人理解,
做了沒人明白.

或許真的..淡淡的就好吧..

2009-10-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

人生真是很奇妙,
有時苦,有時樂,有時卻讓人不知所措.

一只都不停地問自己,
要的人生到底是什麼.
滿足於現狀,
或試去改變.
當你喜歡你的工作時,
那再也不是工作, 而是人生.
當你不喜歡你的工作時,
那不再是人生.
又有多少人會去冒這個險,
改變這穩定的生活,
去嘗試一個不確定的領域.

我的人生就只能這樣嗎?
把自己關在一個小框裡,
看人臉色,
毫無目的的工作.
究經是為了什麼?

我錯了

2009-10-12T12:51:00.002+08:00

怎麼做才好,
做什麼才算好.
頓時心裡好難受.
幹嘛把事情搞成這樣.
這就叫珍惜嗎?

當旁觀者能理智劝告,
當局者卻不知所措.
為什麼不能去多注意, 多諒解
非得等到痛苦的時候才後悔.

聽到了冷漠,
感受到了失望.
看著電話, 了解了思念.
閉上眼, 寒流湧上了心頭.
一切都自做自受.

冷冷的表情,
酷酷的臉,
說不出我一萬個思念.
即使再不捨,
也要硬撐著.

你或許無法理解,
但我還是想讓你知道,
我是多麼的不捨....

2009-09-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

Spending your weekend at home may not be such a bad idea after all.
Giving an unseen comfort to the mind and a good rest to the body.
It certainly helps to ease one's mind and time to think about.

Life has been this way for the past few years.
No changes, just monotonous.
I'm getting so tired of where i am now.
No motivation and no purpose.
Whether i work or not, i still get that paycheck every month.
Most people love that, except for a handful who feels that they could do so much more.
So much so for those who left became better.
We fought a war within ourselves everyday.
How to make our lives better or at least worth living.

I don't hate my life.
I just can't find that purpose of my life.
Undeniable, i thought about my life a lot.
About what i should do, what i could do to make it worthwhile.
I'm fortunate for what i have today.
I did not earn it by myself, i was left with it.

Somehow, i know i would be better off out there.
Doing what i like and making the most out of myself.
Just give me a couple of years more, i will make a difference.
You would treasure it more if you earned it yourself.

out of difficulties, makes miracles

2009-09-12T03:56:00.000+08:00

不知不覺被你的情緒影響,
整個人就悶了起來.
唯一希望的就是你能了解我.
或許我真的沒表示的很明顯,
可是心一定是真的.
我不是一個每天會說喜歡你,
但我一定會珍惜.

際遇

2009-09-07T00:37:00.003+08:00

人生有時就是這麼難以預料.
這條路絕對不好走,
竟管如此, 還是決定放手一博.
只少嘗試過也經歷過.
不過結果如何, 這是我的決擇.

希望九月快點過

Mission complete

2009-08-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

What would you be doing 530am on a Sunday morning?
Probably sleeping, i guess..
Well, i was at esplanade.
No, not because i have not gone back home after some party.
I was there getting ready to run.
Yes, you did not get that wrong. I was there to run.
It was one of those morning when time seems to stop and
there was only one thing in mind..get to the finish line..
2hrs of run was no easy feat.
Not just a jog in the park or a stroll.
It was a gruelling 21km, mentally tested, physically stretched run.
What am i searching for in the wee hours when i could lie
comfortably in my bed enjoying my sleep.
All for the sake of that moment when you cross the finish line
and you know that all the preparation had bear fruits.
That sense of satisfaction and achievement is what push me further.
I'm glad i finished the race. It never felt any better...

mentally tired, physically strained..

2009-07-25T16:58:00.003+08:00

Finally woke up after my morning run.
Finished my first 21km this morning.
Can't believe it's so tiring!
At least i met my target of finishing under 2hrs..
Although it's just a little under 2hrs, it's still good enough for a first-timer..

Wonder how it feels like completing a full marathon..
I just couldn't imagine..
But i'm still going to do it.
It's going to be great physical and mental challenge.
Got to train hard..
Now it's payback time, gotta eat to my fullest..

22days to go..

Gone Too Soon...

2009-07-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

Today we celebrated the life of a true icon.
The final curtain call for the King of Pop.
Watching the memorial brought back many memories.
Not only the memories of childhood but the memories with ur loved ones.

Life has always been so fragile.
Whether you were a popstar or just a man in a crowd, death has never eluded us.
Memories were flooding back in, along with sorrow and regrets.
It was never death that was scary but the death of your close ones.
I finally realised it's not death till us part but rather death brought us together..in our hearts.

I had always wondered what life meant.
Living for almost a century gone..just like this.
It is saddening when you had not done enough,
when you know what you could have done.
There will never be another you...and i would never forget..

i miss you...

Michael Jackson 1958 - 2009

2009-06-30T23:23:00.003+08:00

Goodbye King of Pop...
Too much have been said.
His pictures hogged every newspaper headlines,
His stories, his life has always been that way, isn't it?
No matter how much scandals or how many negatives about him,
The fact is, he will always be the best performer the world would ever see.
His personal life may be in a mess but who could blame him.
He shot to fame overnight and before he know it, the press was all over him.
Everywhere he goes, everything he does was under the eyes of everybody.
Some say he was killed by the media.
Well, i chose to remember him as the best performer on stage and one person
who changes the face of music.
I guess it has always been a long lonely road to super stardom...
There will never be another Michael Jackson..
Rest In Peace Mike.....

2009-06-16T23:37:00.002+08:00

人生就像跑步,
開始跑得太快, 後面就後續無力.
開始跑得太慢, 後面就得追著時間跑.
唯有適當的步伐, 省力, 呼吸才能跑得遠.
看不到終點, 也就看不到未來.
沒了未來, 哪來的目標, 理想.
只要耐心的前進, 目的地就在不遠處.

Weekend getaway

2009-06-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

It was a great weekend getaway from the troubled waters of Singapore.
Certainly an enjoyable trip with the closest people in your life besides your family.
Somehow or rather it did not exactly matched up to our anticipation with many of the facilities
were not available. Luckily, our stomach did not have to suffer after we were treated with
a spread of seafood feast on our last night.
The most important of all, the fun was great, the company was excellent. That's all you need.
Even without the games or how remote the resort was, nothing was in the way of boozing and
enjoying the trip.

Running

2009-06-04T18:28:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how things change so quickly. 2 years ago, i was still dreading to run, forcing myself
for the sake of staying fit. But now, it has almost become an addict. An addict which i need to get my fix every week. Running is not such a chore now. I enjoy my runs now and can't wait to hit it to the roads. Never thought i would be training for marathons. Could still remember this time last year, i was still counting myself lucky when i do not have to do the AHM. This year, however, i have already registered for the 21km event. And come December, 42km awaits.
Running events excites me, not only because of the goodie bag of course, but also the joy of running on the roads of singapore. Well, this second half of year will be exciting, at least
something to look forward to amist the long runs.

16 Aug - Army Half Marathon / Singapore Bay Run (21km)
13 Sep - Mizuno Wave Run (10km)
18 Oct - New Balance Real Run (10km)
6 Dec - Standard Chartered (42km)

These are just some of the confirmed events. Others such as NUS run, Nike run dates have not
been fixed yet. It seems time for another dose of adrenaline....

What's life?

2009-05-31T10:02:00.001+08:00

It has been a while. Many things happened but deem to be routine or insignificant. Life has been this way, isn't it? Do we really have a choice or that circumstances lead us through this path? Doing what you like to do makes you happy, keep you motivated. The building greeted me almost everyday with the sun rays reflecting from the same spot, siginifying a new day. Ironically, the new day resembles like yesterday, or the day before, or rather everyday. So, where is that 'new' day that suppose to beholds us? Suddenly. i felt victim to time. Consuming every step we take, every thought we think.
It seems i'm trying to stall time here. Waiting for the opportunity to struck. Everytime i look around my workplace,i know, for sure, this ain't gonna be my life. People here are just waiting for things to happen. Only when the knife is right at their throat before they can start working. There are no committment, no initiative, no self-motivation. Work for the sake of working, for the sake of showing people he can work but we all know the truth as much. Well, i figure it out there is nothing i could do to change anything. So why get so vexed up? Simply because i'm facing these people day in day out.
I told myself i am going to get out one day. This is not the place for me, definitely. Just need a couple of years when i have enough gold to venture. Meanwhile, there are much homework to be done. That will keep me going, period. Hopefully it lasts longer than i have to wait.

Dan Brown

2009-04-23T16:11:00.004+08:00

Books made me sleepy, i admit. So, I seldom read. Given my lack of reading, i probably should not be the one recommending books. When i first stumbled across this author, i never gave a second look. After reading his first book, i must say, he is really good. I applaud his efforts in writing his books.
Juggling between ficton and non-fiction, his books are so intriguing that it simply can't stop you from reading. You will be sucked into his world of imagination. It was as if you are watching a movie out of a book. That was probably why his books were turned into movies one by one. From his Da Vinci Code to Angels and Demons, the scripts were written in such a pace that there was no time to stop and breathe. Imagine the researches he has to do in just writing a book and on top of that, challenging the theories behind those religions and beliefs. I do not know if he had something against Christianity, perhaps it's a religion with the most controversies and arguments? You sometimes wondered the contents of his books, which are the facts and which are not. Christians would have argued the contents but how much do you know about your religion? Are you just finding a god to believe in or that you hope to go to heaven after believing? It's not about finding the one with the best offers with the best prizes. I mean, seriously, what makes people believe in religions? How do you actually choose your religion? Popularity? Because your friends told you God is great?
Don't misunderstood me here. I'm not being prejudice to religions or dissuade people from believing in one. It was just a mind boggling thought i had recently. Religion has never been my life agenda. Though i was forced to attend many functions by my late mum. Perhaps i would never understand the reason for religion...

2009-04-20T21:08:00.002+08:00

The food remain tasteless as i goggled up for the sake of filling my hunger. This morning was worse off. I almost suffocate with my own training. A remedial training for my IPPT failures turn out to be too much. Too much, even for myself, it seems. Should have listen to my body warning system. Clearly not 100%, i tried to push myself a bit more. A bit more nearly drive me into daze. Need to get back to shape..slowly. Wonder how long this would last..Hopefully it ends soon...

2009-04-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

假期結束了..
又是回到現實的時刻.
好累, 真的好累.
再加上了病魔, 今天實在不好過.
或許在這個時候,
才會覺得有個人在旁會有多好.
話說回來,
有沒有好像也沒差.
有得必有失吧.
可能一個人真的比較好吧.

Made it

2009-04-09T17:02:00.002+08:00

Finally made it.
Foot across the line and the time stops.
A sudden gush of air into my lungs as i try to recover from my panting.
It never seemed easy for me but the satisfaction beats it all.
I had tried my best and i got the results i need.
This could easily be my best run for the entire year.
More significantly, it came at the right time.

First goal achieved..
now next....

不甘心

2009-04-01T19:01:00.002+08:00

不甘心, 好不甘心.
就差7秒..
長的讓人受不了的7秒.
今年一定要做到!
7天..7秒...
我行的!!!

緣份?

2009-03-28T17:52:00.003+08:00

分隔兩地,
但我們還是相遇.
或許是一種緣份吧.
也說不上什麼原因,
對一個不曾見過面的人,
有著這種感覺.
是錯覺嗎,
還是終於讓我遇到了.
希望這一切是真實的...

2009-03-24T23:06:00.004+08:00

人唯但我
才有是不
會被我覺
擁斬覺得
有裂得人
像墜花美
花地美 ,
一的 .
般那
的一
模刻
樣 ,
.

2009-03-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

又是突然的好想你.
怎麼每次聽你說都覺得我是代替品.
或許過去會有所期待,
但現在卻變成一種替代.
就是一點都沒變, 一點都沒.
好好過你的生活不是很好嗎?
何必又來對我說這些.
真的很厭倦了.
這些言語已對我沒作用了...你難道還不明白嗎?

Tired? Anger?

2009-03-08T10:40:00.003+08:00

Having completed my 7th consecutive duty yesterday(yea, SEVENTH) , fatigue is kicking in faster nowadays. Mentally tired describes my condition perfectly. I need a rest badly. Energy drained, physically worn out yet i still had to keep myself in perfect physique for the coming IPPT in April. Despite running regularly, training for timing is another thing altogether. More physical demanding training is needed. With a morale at rock bottom and a battered body, it's hard trying to enhanced my performance.

Work is not getting easier too. The whole transition period is killing everybody. Working time extended and a big bunch of 'freshmen' to teach. Perhaps that explains the fatigue building in me. Temper porbably comes along with it as well. I had always tried so hard not to make people cover my duty because of my personal events yet there are just bloody suckers who don't give a shit and enjoys every bit of us having to cover his ass for him. Why should i give a damn then. I should enjoy burning his every long weekend and watch him have a taste of his own medicine.
It's just a matter of time before he becomes my target board. Just a matter of time....

火大

2009-02-24T11:50:00.002+08:00

一股怒氣湧上頭,
一個不知所為,不知天高地厚的黃毛小子,
竟然得寸進尺, 爬到我頭上來.
平時不發威竟把我當病貓.
不要以為沒人敢對你怎麼樣,你就能為所欲為.
最好是看凊楚你踩著誰的尾巴.
把我惹火了, 我敢單保你從此絕對不會有好日子過.

他媽的....

Lost~

2009-02-16T20:20:00.001+08:00

Time are passing faster nowadays.
Not to mention, years seems to fly pass like a fighter plane.
Thinking about the future can be so scary.
What lies ahead depends on how i want it to be.
What if, I do not know how i want it to be? '
Lost' could be a big word to use but it fits in my shoes. Lost in life? Probably so.
Perhaps being in a place for too long can make one so unmotivated and hopeless.
Looking at my peers and then my superiors. Is this what i want 10 years down the road?
I could feel the drowning sensation and desperately gasping for air.
I need a hand to get me out, to tell me this is the road you should be taking.
Shed some light on my life, please.
It's disheartening going for work everyday now.
Nothing seems to be moving except the clock on the wall.
What is wrong?
Something i have been trying to figure out these days too.
I began to dread this place and am looking for alternatives everyday.
Guess i'm desperate. Desperate to get out.
Staring myself deep at the mirror, this cannot be my life....

想對你說的話

2009-01-21T15:01:00.001+08:00

一個忘不了的日子,
一幕深深烙印在心裡的畫面,
每年這時都會不盡的浮現.

好想你啊.....
你知道嗎..每次聽到身邊的人說起媽媽的事時,
或打電話給他們時, 心裡有時就會覺得..好酸..
雖然不曾說或表現出來, 不過真的很羨慕.

我當然很慶幸三姨每年除夕不忘都會叫我到她家,
更讓我珍惜每年的年夜飯.
說真的, 我非常感謝她們一家人這幾年對我的照顧,
把我當做家人看待.
但是,我也凊楚我始終不屬於她們一家.
當然不是因為她們做的不夠多或不夠好.
她們對我已經很好,做的夠多了.
畢竟她們才是住在一起的一家人,
會互相照顧, 一起分擔煩惱.
我又怎麼能去加重她們的煩惱呢.
偶爾和她們吃吃晚飯, 還有每年的团圓飯已經讓我很滿足了.
真的很感謝你門!!

回想起小時候總是要跑來跑去, 老是換保母.
一直沒發現其實最辛苦的人是你.
就算我懂事能在家裡時, 你還是會不放心.
每天特早起來, 就為了幫我準備早餐和午餐.
每天放學都會打來問我到家了嗎.
當時我只覺得好煩, 怎麼老是打來.
那時, 我只希望能快點長大.
現在回頭看, 或許我應該好好珍惜和你的每一天.
為什麼總是要在失去後才懂得珍惜呢.
時間不回倒轉, 沒有了重來的機會, 留下的只有後悔.
後悔為什麼沒好好孝順你,
後悔為什麼老是和你頂嘴,
後悔從來都沒和你好好的說話.
如今, 這些後悔換來的只有遺憾.
要怪只能怪當時把一切都當作理所當然.

現在發現一個人要打理一個家真的不容易.
不知道你怎麼有辦法又工作有得做家務.
雖然我從小學會了如何獨立,
但正正一個人住時, 卻是兩回事.
我知道很多人很羨慕我這麼年輕就有自己的家.
不否認的, 一個人住確實有了很大的自由.
你要做什麼都沒有人管.
有一點要記得的是, 你病倒時也沒人會在身邊照顧你.
盡管如此, 我覺得我還是很辛運的.
這幾年來, 我也學會了很多事.
家裡大大小小都得親理親為.
身旁也有許多關心我的好朋友.

媽..
你不用再但心我了, 我真的長大了.
我知道你一直都在某處看著我.
如果你能聽見, 我想對你說..
對不起,
從小到大只會惹你生氣, 讓你但心.
對不起,
在你還在時, 沒有好好的孝順你.
媽媽只有一個, 我卻不會去珍惜.
或許已太遲, 不過我不會忘記你對我所做的一切.
在你離開前所說的話, 我會窂窂記在心裡.

新年快樂, 媽....

晚餐

2009-01-18T11:17:00.007+08:00

有一段時間沒下廚了

Back..

2009-01-05T19:47:00.002+08:00

Am back after my long trip away.
I would say it's a long trip as it really drain all my energy.
Was glad that i'm back..for once..
it has been a fantastic trip though..
all the drinking and clubbing. probably a little too long..feeling the effects now.
time for a rest, i guess.

2009..
how to make it different from 2008.
gonna go try out new things..
shouldn't waste my life..we would never know what will happen tomorrow.
at least i'm gonna live my life worthwhile.
no time for egret, no time for procastinating.
actions speak louder, experience makes one learn.
it's going to be a different year...

2008

2008-12-26T11:36:00.002+08:00

had a really fun time last night at jovie's house.
there were soccer players, old man, stupid boy, minnie mouse, a fat superman,
secondary school students and some ridiculous looking couple..
the food was good and the company was great.

lookng back at this past year,
April - went bangkok with boon, kopi, bao, fei, pamela, shihui, debbie
May - duty on my birthday..zzzz..
June - went for Policing course in Police Academy
July - went bangkok again with dehong.
August - AHM run..
October - overseas attachment to Queensland, Australia.
December - going bangkok..yea..again...hahaha..

seems like i start the year in bangkok and end it in bangkok..haha
i had a really fun year in 2008, living my life to the fullest, i suppose.

but the world wasn't doing so well.
hit by the sub-prime crisis, the whole world is in recession.
some people even comparing it to the great depression.
banks after banks fallen. companies after companies collapsed.
had never thought that recession could affect people.
afterall, i was still schooling during the last recession.
we had seen how china has its up and downs all within one year.
india being attacked by terrorists, bangkok airport being close down.
there were so much unrest all over the world.
i'm not a fan of world peace but hope all this will be over soon.

looking forward to 2009, hope i can get post out.
seriously need a change of environment, change of lifestyle.
let's embrace 2009 with hope, peace and love...(this is so miss world script)

goodbye singapore..hello bangkok..

my christmas present

2008-12-21T23:12:00.004+08:00

My new gadget..

it's a beauty...

不安靜的夜

2008-12-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

沒人的房子裡顯得特別安靜
不開燈的房間讓人看不見
一個人的心跳掩蓋了這寧靜
好不容易忘記又突然想起
為什麼在這時浮現的是你影子
放棄的原因比誰都了解
等了再久又如何
心中的傷痕不會為你而愈合

Oops, i did it again

2008-12-06T14:54:00.002+08:00

yea, i did it again..
drunk and feeling the effects..
shit, shouldn't have drank so much.
i'm alright, just feeling a little restless.
couldn't exactly piece together what i did last night,
or what happen last night.
all i know is i was everywhere and finally home.
had never crave for my bed so much.
hey, at least i didn't dirty the cab k..
wonder how am i going to survive my 8 nights in bangkok.
god bless.....

沒力?

2008-11-30T13:16:00.002+08:00

喘氣聲變得好沉重,
腳步不聽使喚,
心中的毅力像被踩著,
散發出的汗,
讓人感覺疲憊.
到底怎麼了?
是真的累了嗎?
莫名的狀況讓我好困惑...

打掃

2008-11-26T21:41:00.003+08:00

做家務真的不容易,
今天的大掃除費了我半天的時間.
但是看到家變得干淨,
也小有成就感啦.
明天就星期四了, 卻不怎麼期待周末.
因為拜六要工作!! 超悶..
不過下個禮拜會更好, 那是一定的.

到底要遠遠看著, 還是靠近一點比較好

周末

2008-11-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

這周末過得還不錯,
沒喝酒, 滿健康的.
有得吃, 有得睡, 有麻將打, ok的啦.
終於把籃球火看完了.
結局有點瞎啦, 可能是為了part 2 而铺的路吧(最好是)..
不過整體來講, 還是蠻好看的啦, 挺有feel的.
有點小咳嗽, 需喝多點水. 最討厭這種感覺的.
超期待下個月的到來, 應該會超好玩.

12月快點到!!

Kiss Goodbye

2008-11-22T11:14:00.003+08:00

誰說rocker不能唱抒情歌,
喜歡林鴻鳴詮釋的版本.

如果林鴻鳴不贏星光四, 還有誰能..

三天的閑人

2008-11-20T17:21:00.002+08:00

不用工作的日子真好,
賴床遲起超爽的.
別以為這幾天什麼都沒做.
看電影, 游泳, 看籃球火, 打game,
超多事做的好嗎..哈哈..
感覺起來做個宅男其實也挺不錯的嘛..可惜我不完全算是..哈..
這幾天下來有讓我好好的休息,
畢竟休息是為了走更長的路不是嗎..
不過歡樂時光總是特別短,
明天又得工作了..悶..
望好的方面想, 又是周末了!!
相信這周末應該會不錯吧..

明天快點過, 周末快點到

你在哪

2008-11-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

同樣的星期天,
同樣的結果.
難道你真的那麼不在乎這一切.
又是苦苦的等,
沒有回應的簡訊,
沒人接的電話.
說不出的失落, 只能掛在心上.

永別了..黎礎寧..

2008-11-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

看到新聞時,
似乎無法相信.
生命就是如此的脆弱.
再次讓我感受到人生的無常.
腦裡一片空白.
當生命到了盡頭時, 我會怎麼做.
一樣的生命, 不一樣的生活, 一樣的結果??

Brand new day..

2008-11-10T23:20:00.007+08:00

no matter what happen today, the sun still rises tomorrow..

Obar

2008-11-09T20:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was brother Pi Kia birthday celebration..
and of course,the result is...dead drunk..
it had been quite a happening outing, maybe except for some vomitting here and there.
well, that's probably part of the fun (consoling myself)..
can't believe i could actually still go eat 可口面 after that.
it has been a dead sunday on the bed..
don't ask me why i didn't go out. let's just say, the aeroplane took off w/o me..zzzz..

Waterfall!!

Smokers(but not me)

aeroplane sunday....zzzzzz...

ROCKER!!!!

2008-11-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

林鴻鳴太屌了啦!!!

回來了

2008-11-02T21:23:00.002+08:00

兜了一圈還是回到了原點.
証驗了一句,

舊愛還是最美...

值得嗎?

2008-09-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

沒想到事情的轉變竟是如此的殘忍.
曾是那麼棒的導師, 工作的好伙伴,
如今將可能成為囚人.
因為一個女人,
他變得精神恍惚,
開始不在乎工作,
眼睜睜看他掉進了谷底.
能幫上忙也幫了,
可是他卻越陷越深.
該說是上天太殘忍, 不見人情, 落進下石,
還是該說他自做自受.
值得嗎?
我不敢想像這種事情發生在我身上.
但只少現在的我不會.
一切以不由他了,
如果能全身而退就算僥倖了.
咳~
成也愛情敗也愛情

在家的第二天

2008-08-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

從小就討厭看牙醫
沒想到在一個星期內便看了三次
昨天拔智慧牙,
過程真的好累.
雖然不怎麼痛, 可是當你知道你的牙在被拔,嘴巴在被開刀,
那感覺還是很不好受.
不過只少拔掉了.
現在就只能待在家.
什麼也不能吃, 什麼也不能做, 真像個廢人一樣.
只覺得臉好腫.
真希望快點..快點..快點..好...

Singapore Bay Run'08

2008-08-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

I was still in the mist of my sleep as i pull myself up early on a Sunday morning at 545am. It was going to be a long morning. Not the usual Sunday morning, this Sunday sees many on a train towards City Hall. The Singapore Bay Run / Army Half Marathon is going to be held there.
The crowd was sure overwhelming. With almost everyone from the SAF, the civilians wants a part of it too. This was the first time i ran with so many people. And i truly meant many. Start point was at Fullerton Hotel, overseeng the Marina Bay. A great scene to start a race despite the seemingly endless sea of people.
By 830, i had done my bit in the morning, finishing 10km in 50+ mins. Tired, definitely but an achievement for myself as this is the 2nd 10km run i finish this year. I know deep in me i could go further. Maybe next year, i would go for the 21km, who knows. Back home, i belong to the bed, totally. The body has worked hard and time for a good rest.

the starting point

last burst of fire

搬家了

2007-12-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

我搬家了...
http://tw.myblog.yahoo.com/jw!tUCraeKeERV9NZOyY.V.SVSEbEc-

星光

2007-12-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

如何把一首歌唱到心核里
只有拥有一种感动穿透的声音
这是一种天赋
或许就如陶子所说: 要几年才来个杨宗伟啊。
不否认二班也唱的很好
就始终少了那份感动
又有多少人有萧敬腾和杨宗伟那种能量
节目内容真假与否已不重要
重要的是他们的歌声已烙印在我们心中

星光效应

我不会唱歌

2007-12-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

会唱情歌的人
不一定懂得如何去爱
我们都会唱情歌
但我们都无法把爱说出口

我不会唱歌

你在哪里

2007-12-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

何时才能遇到你
难道一切早有注定
让你躲在人群里
我不渴望爱情却又怕孤寂
这场自欺欺人的游戏
要我怎么继续下去
是命运的作弄还是我心里的痛
你在我面前我却看不见
究竟还要多久你才会出现
你在我旁边我看不见
到底走了多远我却没了感觉

天与地连成的线怎么看不见

失眠

2007-12-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

宁静代表着什么
耳边只剩钟针
仿佛在嘲笑
怎么还不睡觉
风轻轻吹雨细细下
闭上眼成了解药
时间停了
梦开始了

zzzzzzz......

累

2007-11-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

前方的路是那么遥远
路开始变得模糊距离越来越远
已感觉不到脚步加速的呼吸
仿佛世界没了空气
这一场跟时间赛跑的比赛
是否真的战胜不了
停下不了的脚步开始缓慢的速度
我...真的累了

休息

离别

2007-11-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

good-bye my love 我的爱人再见
good-bye my love 相见不知哪一天
我会永远永远爱你在心里
希望你不要把我忘记

再见了..
谢谢你这一年半的陪伴,
我不会忘记你的.

再见 SGE9847E...

Future

2007-11-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

Are we able to change the future not knowing what it beholds?
How should we start?
Where should we start?
Sometimes we are blinded what is before us,
Making ourselves the murderer of our own future.
If there are changes to be made,it is now.
We just need someone to step forward,stab the reality into our hearts,
will we realise that we are siting on fortunes left for us.
Sacrifices are inevitable,
The question is are you willing to sacrifice?
Sacrifice what you have now to get something better,
The answer is simple.

Where the future lies is where you start

尘归尘,土归土

2007-11-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

人为了什么而活?
又为了什么而死?
当你决定放弃生命时,
想的又是什么?
我第二次踏进那里,
这次是送走一个朋友,
一个敬仰的教官.

人生无常,
事情的转变总在一瞬间.
听着他家人和朋友的哀悼,
不尽也让我想起当年的痛处.
失去亲人感受真的不好过,
或许那时年轻的我没那么感性,
虽然我不在每个人面前表现的伤感,
不代表我是不难过的.
也许强颜欢笑是我掩饰自己的方法吧.

生命就是这么的脆弱,
及使一个再坚强,再开朗的人,
也会有他脆弱的时候.
但又会有多少人能了解.........

你永远活在我们心中

Alive?

2007-10-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

Why do we live?
How do we breathe?
The same things we do everyday,
Living to live,
Would you dare to make changes?
Or do you fear of what the future beholds?
Some trying to be success,
Others try to survive.
What determines success?
Rich or fame?
Are we meant for something greater?
Something out of this world perhaps,
Something that only happens in your wildest dreams.
You gave us the gift to ask,
Yet you make us seek for answers.
Where do we seek?
Will we find it?

who am i....

Questions

2007-10-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

Where does this come from?
This quest, this need to solve life's simpliest of questions that can never be answered,
Why are we here?
What is a soul?
Why do we dream?
Perhaps its better not thinking at all,
Not dugging, not yearning.
That's not human nature,
Not the human heart,
And it's not why we are here.
Do we try to make a difference? Can we?
We do not choose destiny,
Destiny chooses us,
Are we meant to be what we are now?
Sometimes questions are more powerful than answers.
Why is this happenning?
What's the meaning of all this?
Why now?
More than often,
We were made to make choices,
If you have a chance to change it all,
Would you?

purpose...

不悦

2007-10-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

不顺的一天,
脾气爆燥精神欠佳,
别惹毛我你不会想看到,
管你是天王老子,
我也会把你打垮.

就是这么不爽

颜面受损

2007-09-30T02:57:00.000+08:00

突然的意外,
猛烈的撞击,
头如地震般,
顿时不知何事,
睁开眼发现他倒地,
左目直冒血.
脸部隐隐作痛,
后知我右脸也流着鲜红的血.
救伤车不久便到,
他被送往医院制血及缝针.
回到家才检验伤口,
伤口虽深但不大,
除了稍臃肿与血迹应没大碍.
连忙赶去国大医院,
辛他已缝完无大碍了.

痛是短暂
伤疤却是永恒